Greetings all,
Wow wee, this time of year is always out-of-control with wrapping up the school year, Christmas shoppping/ planning/ comprising, making stock for markets . . . but this week i've been riding the roller coaster of life, truly UP & down down down.
I have so many wonderful things around me, handsome soldier, happy children, a thriving home business. Now we're looking at land to start a farm, build a homestead, private school . . . i can't wait!!
Wow wee, this time of year is always out-of-control with wrapping up the school year, Christmas shoppping/ planning/ comprising, making stock for markets . . . but this week i've been riding the roller coaster of life, truly UP & down down down.
I have so many wonderful things around me, handsome soldier, happy children, a thriving home business. Now we're looking at land to start a farm, build a homestead, private school . . . i can't wait!!
I have these amazing books to review - Beloved Homes produced by IKEA (details soon) & the much hyped & anticipated Handmade Living, which i'm so proudly involved with. Ahhhh, dreamy life, non??
What else today . . . these amazing fabrics arrived, a mix of French Provincial, wordy fabrics, bright girlie patterns & Golden Book prints, oh & some Christmas prints!! Bliss.
So why so down down down?? I'm the happiest person around!!
Well i've spoken of my mother's struggle with Alzheimer's before, it's getting ugly now & really affecting my father. My brother, the doctor one, is bringing them to Canberra on Friday for a visit while he's at a medical conference. I can't stop thinking about how mum will be, how dad will be, how i will be?? This is a horrible nasty unfair disease which takes your loved ones away from you long before they pass. I can't stand it. My mother said, upon her diagnosis 5 years ago "i wish it was cancer, something i could fight & something i could hate".
Well i've spoken of my mother's struggle with Alzheimer's before, it's getting ugly now & really affecting my father. My brother, the doctor one, is bringing them to Canberra on Friday for a visit while he's at a medical conference. I can't stop thinking about how mum will be, how dad will be, how i will be?? This is a horrible nasty unfair disease which takes your loved ones away from you long before they pass. I can't stand it. My mother said, upon her diagnosis 5 years ago "i wish it was cancer, something i could fight & something i could hate".
In the contributor write up in Handmade Living, it mentions that i learnt all my craft skills from my mother. Sigh, she can't remember. She can't read this book & think, "forget the science degrees, Jennie is in this book because i taught her something money can't buy, i passed on a skill from one generation to another". It would make her so proud, my dad is proud, i want both of them to be proud.
I'll leave it there for now, i'm so anxious how this week will wrap up . . . & i'm an incredibly relaxed person. I just want to pretend it's not happening, show my mummy our beautiful Shop & how her skills transferred into my products . . . & talk like we used to. This amazing woman has been married for 55 years, 4 children, 14 grandchildren, she's a chef & can do absolutely anything around the home, a true 1950's housewife. To be stripped of her memory just kills me.
I have two markets on this weekend, deep breaths, so distracted, mental illness sucks.
Thanks for listening, love Posie
I have two markets on this weekend, deep breaths, so distracted, mental illness sucks.
Thanks for listening, love Posie
