Greetings all,
I've been skirting around a lot of things lately. Where i am & how i am.
I just spent 5 glorious weeks in Brisbane, at my husband's bachelor pad - swimming, thinking, cycling, baking, reading, walking, eating, shopping, cooking, exercising . . . restoring my mind, body & soul. 2011 was a tough year for many, me included. To recap the lows, my mother has Alzheimer's & doesn't recognise me; my husband is away at war for 9 months; i gained a lot of weight; & i have such bad carpal tunnel syndrome, i can barely grip cutlery, pegs, pens, scissors . . . devestating when you are a designer. Makes for a sad crafty blog when you can barely craft (i've been losing followers, sorry i can't sustain you) thanks to everyone else hanging in there with me.
I just spent 5 glorious weeks in Brisbane, at my husband's bachelor pad - swimming, thinking, cycling, baking, reading, walking, eating, shopping, cooking, exercising . . . restoring my mind, body & soul. 2011 was a tough year for many, me included. To recap the lows, my mother has Alzheimer's & doesn't recognise me; my husband is away at war for 9 months; i gained a lot of weight; & i have such bad carpal tunnel syndrome, i can barely grip cutlery, pegs, pens, scissors . . . devestating when you are a designer. Makes for a sad crafty blog when you can barely craft (i've been losing followers, sorry i can't sustain you) thanks to everyone else hanging in there with me.
My Brisbane-escape-focus was on the children & planning how to tackle this year, which will be HUGE. With the pending sale of our Darwin apartment & my heart set on a Canberra property . . . it's easy to get lost in all the plans. I crave time with my husband & how he makes me feel - loved, safe, happy. I've been madly in love with him for half my life. His current posting was 2 years with 1 deployment, sure, i'm busy with sewing & the children, we can manage it . . . then parenting got serious with a high schooler & my hands became so retarded, halting time spent in my studio, which was my happy place, the balance was out, way out. Handsome soldier's 2 year posting became 4 years with another deployment, i'm focussing on the bigger picture, our future as a family unit again, in 2014 on a farm, as far off as it seems.
Just at the right time last year, lovely Jane from Life on Planet Baby, sent me a link to the Brave Girls Club - two American sisters who run 'empowering women workshops' (my words) & send daily emails, a personal pick-me-up-girl-power for the day. I'm not spiritual, however, their words speak-to-me!! Wouldn't you know - these words arrived in my InBox - after refuelling my soul & ready to resume my real life again.
We are all 'too important to wear out' . . . last year, i.was.worn.out!! It's so unhealthy. 'Souls need kindness', why are we so unkind to ourselves or let people be unkind to us??
Subscribe to their daily emails, they speak to you, trust me!!
Even successful & confident people can struggle to believe in themselves, especially on the verge of such huge changes & unknown possibilities in their personal lives. I strive to be independent, yet, so much lies in the hands, advice & belief of others - for us right now, it's property buyers & sellers!! We're on the edge of it all falling into place, it's nerve wracking & exciting, a big financial puzzle with many players, it's difficult to be patient. I'm glad for the journey, as much as i want to race to the destination, clearing all the hurdles along the way with ease . . . i still feel we need a lot of luck & good timing in this world. I'm ready, i'm on the verge of being a much better me, i can feel it now . . . a smooth property sale/ purchase & more time with my husband is a lovely bonus. Love Posie
PS thank you for asking about my hands, i don't want to bore you all & constantly talking about my carpal tunnel syndrome, even though it dominates my days . . . i'm seeing the hand surgeon next month!!
PS thank you for asking about my hands, i don't want to bore you all & constantly talking about my carpal tunnel syndrome, even though it dominates my days . . . i'm seeing the hand surgeon next month!!
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oh, this was a great post! filled with rest for you, and hope for the future, too. keep going, dearie!
Pain is a horrid thing and especially when it keeps you from your passion.....we all love you Momma!
SOunds like you have found a good plce to be in until you get to the farm.
All the best luck and wishes to you with the real estate - stressful but exciting too.
Hoping you all have a GREAT year.
Hang in there, don't they say it's always the darkest before the dawn? I hope your sale (and purchase) goes through quickly and everything just falls into place.
Cheers
Anne
It's Interesting reading how different people have such different years. Last year was very difficult for us too for lots of reasons and we have hopes that this one is much better. I think dealing with one challenge at a time is the only way to do it as it's just too much to worry about your hands, your mum, your new home on its way and your husband at war. Each one of those is enough by itself! One day at a time, on step at a time and you'll be ok! X
I just know 2012 is going to be a better year for you and you are going to be better for it. Hang in there - i will be hanging in with you!
Big hugs to you Jen xxx
So glad your break away helped you recharge and restore...go get 2012..it will happen xx
Best of luck in the realestate roundabout - and with the rest of it of it all! (so daunting when its all down on paper/screen)
Your posts are my own brave girl mails - there's always something that speaks to me in them
Hi Posie so sorry I haven't been by for ages I kind of shut myself of the blogging world for a while, so glad you had a good 5 weeks in Brisbane over the holidays.
Hope all goes well when you go see the hand specialist my mum had the same luckily for her she tried acupuncture that really helped. But I know there are all kinds of different strength so I hope you get it all sorted it must be so frustrating for you & I am so sorry this has happened, will be thinking of you.
Its amazing how inspirational words can lift you up, keep reading them & stay positive, before you know it you will be sending post from your farm which I will look forward to seeing myself.
Sending a cyber hug Elaine x
How did life get so difficult!!! Dear Brave Girl, sending you strength, support and love (blogger style) for a wonderful year. Thanks for sharing not just today but everytime you do, Cheers SpecialK XoXo.
Thanks everyone, i'm trying to contain my optimism on the sale of our property & go calmly, patiently. Straight up, i want to burst with excitement, maybe i will in a few post's time?? Love Posie
Nurturing ourselves. It is important. I have learnt the hard way about this.
My craft is my meditation. Not being able to do this and get to your happy place is truly frustrating and more than a little bit awful.
Go the exercise, that'll have to do as a poor substitute until your hands are better. Maybe you could walk and take photos... this makes me happy. Record the inspiring things you see as you walk and then after your surgery you can look at the photos and include the colours, pattern, feel into your craft. You don't need a fancy camera.
My thoughts are with you... and just keep dreaming towards 2014.
I had my carpal tunnel operated on. It was a blessing. Yes you will loose a little strength but who cares. The pain will be gone.
You will know when you have over tired it, you may know when it is going to rain but each year will get better. Do not fear get the operation. Hugs.
Hope your hand surgeon is able to get onto your hands very shortly and you can get on with the crafts you love - probably sewing new curtains for your new farm. What an exciting time for your whole family.
I can only imagine how difficult a four year separation is - the trouble with the army is they always shift the goal posts:) DH just found out he has a 3 month exercise straight after the new baby is born (technically he is supposed to be away when the baby is due; but we negotiated;)). The first night he came home, it was 6 weeks - alright I thought I can suck it up, a couple of days later it was about 6 weeks longer. But you cope don't you - when faced with no choice:) I was joking with my mum last night that this baby will have to learn to sleep through the night early - Ginger first slept through the night when she was about 6 months old - DH had been away 10 weeks between field time and a promotion course. I still have no idea if she actually slept through the night or I was just too sleep deprived to wake to her crying:)
Hang in there Posie.
Dear Sweet Posie...thinking of you, All the best for your real estate .....YAY!!! lots of Love...Dzintra xoxox
Wishing you a healthy, happy, fulfilling and lucky 2012! You have such determination, I'm sure it will be all you want it to be.
I have been so very terrible at keeping up with all the goings on in blogland so it was with a huge sense of guilt for being so silent and sadness that I read about all that is happening in your life.
Hang in there, lovely lady. 2012 will be a good one, I'm sure.
Glad you are closer to getting your hands sorted. I can only imagine how frustrating it is not to have full use of them. Wishing you all the very best for your property sale and purchase too. The next few years sound busy and exicting for you. Cx
Sending hugs and I am sure this year will be a far more positive one as you look forward to your farm plans. Sometimes life just deals all the challenging stuff at once, and all we can do it hold on for the ride until things subside a little. I think I need to check out that link too.
I do admire your courage and I feel for your sadness. I hope you can get your hands fixed and have your lovely soldier boy with you again soon.
Thanks poise for a great post I signed up for the emails. At the end of last year i was a little spent. Think I need a little soul lift every now and again and I don't have half the things on my plate that you have. Onward and upward and hears to a year of dreams coming true.
I live with a disability Posie & know first hand how difficult it is living with that & pain every-single-day!!
The thing i do love about you & reading your blog is that you are always full of hope & like me are focusing on the future & joyful, good things in life while enjoying every day :)
I love the saying 'you are sucking the marrow out of life'!! despite difficulties along the way.
You already know I have so much admiration and respect for you - even moreso to see you recognise the need to care for yourself amidst everything else going on.
:-) xxx
Yay to having a date to see about your hands. We are 5 hours away if you need us:)
I should have paid more attention to those photos. LOL - should have recognised that couch, pool and trees:)
Hope that you all had a lovely time away and that it has prepared you for another school year.
Love K
Hmm, looking after ourselves is so much harder than nurturing others. Great link...here's to one step at a time realizing the dream (and enjoying the good now moments when you can).
Chin up buddy, keep looking up. I know you do. We all need reminders occasionally though. xx
Posie, so glad you got away for a break and to sort things out. And, isn't it amazing how gifts present themselves when you least expect them and truly need them? Stay the course my friend. You are strong like bull!! xx, Margie
Great post Jen. Thanks for sharing such personal insights x x
Cheers to a good 2012, positive things are ahead for us all, I feel a sense of relief to let go of last year. We all need to take some time to take care of ourselves. I feel that balance is important, but sometimes elusive... I recognise how lucky I am, but also how easiy I can lose control. I work full time, I have to make my kids more responsible for themselves and for our home. I also feel better at letting some things slide in order to steal time for myself and my creative pursuits.... clean washing may sit a day before it is put away but it is not the end of the world... I am still learning how to make the choices which allow my greater happiness, otherwise I am a slave to housework which we all know is never ending!!!! I do feel happier about myself, and I think it is because I have become less hard on myself as time passes....
You have some wonderful goals and you will make them happen! You will sort your hands this year and then you can get back to doing more of what you love.
Happy week!!!! X
Hi Miss Posie
You are up there in my top list of wishes for this year.
I wish you you and handsome to be together too soon.
I wish for you and your parents to have wonderful times together.
I wish for you and your children to have a new adventure with you real estate so soon.
I wish for you to be pain FREE.
You deserve great things as you give great things - that universe works in wonderful ways sometimes.
Have a wonderful day,
loulou, from hereiamloulou blog
x
Hi Miss Posie
You are up there in my top list of wishes for this year.
I wish you you and handsome to be together too soon.
I wish for you and your parents to have wonderful times together.
I wish for you and your children to have a new adventure with you real estate so soon.
I wish for you to be pain FREE.
You deserve great things as you give great things - that universe works in wonderful ways sometimes.
Have a wonderful day,
loulou, from hereiamloulou blog
x
Thinking of you , and your poor hands. Hope the appt goes well :)
Wishing you a fabulous 2012! All the best :-)
Hello Gorgeous
So belatedly catching up on my blog reading. Thankyou so much for the sweet mention here.
I am just *so* delighted that the Brave Girls are helping you through such a difficult patch. They are true angels, aren't they? J x
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